for the Love of Christ

Learning to walk in freedom | I am no longer my own

"A friend is, as it were, a second self." ~ Cicero

So happy I got to spend some time with this gal this past weekend. To be with a kindred spirit, with someone cut from the same cloth as me. How often can you say that you’re refreshed by someone’s presence? How many friends truly inspire you? I thank God for such a friend. But you see, our bond goes deeper than friendship, even the best of friendships. We are sisters. With the same love and same mission in life. I’m so honored and proud to be walking this life with her alongside me. Distance is not a hindrance, because I carry a piece of her with me. As I do with all of my dearest friends. 

How grateful I am for the friendships God has gifted me with! It’s hard to believe I come from a life that used to be devoid of any close relationships. I didn’t know how to reach out or connect with others. I feared people. My heart was left unused. Then, I was shown love by my God, my Creator, my Father and Friend, and so I came to believe that I could be known deeply and intimately. Although my life has been so enriched by all the new acquaintances I’ve come to meet in the last two years, I cherish the select few who have gained the honor of holding my heart. They are the ones who reflect my friendship with God. They are the ones in whose presence I can breathe, and simply be. I used to feel so unlovable, but slowly, in the context of my friendships with those who are vessels of God’s love to me, I’m beginning to see myself as my Father in heaven sees me. 

"No longer do I call you servants, for the servant does not know what his master is doing; but I have called you friends, for all that I have heard from my Father I have made known to you" (John 15:15).

"The LORD takes pleasure in those who fear him, in those who hope in his steadfast love" (Psalm 147:11).

“You can’t find intimacy—you can’t find home—when you’re always hiding behind masks. Intimacy requires a certain level of vulnerability. It requires a certain level of you exposing your fragmented, contradictory self to someone else. You running the risk of having your core self rejected and hurt and misunderstood.”

– Junot Díaz

Girls longboarding! This video makes me so happy :)

I can’t wait to hop on my skateboard this weekend! :)

I can’t wait to hop on my skateboard this weekend! :)

Gratitude

  • Knowing and loving God deeply
  • Kindred spirits 
  • Worship
  • A great apartment
  • Wonderful roommate
  • New friendships
  • Joy that comes as a result of practicing gratitude
  • A body of fellow lovers of Jesus
  • Renewed perspective
  • Trust (in God and in people)
  • Vulnerability
  • Courage

Letters

In my journals, I’m able to express my deepest longings and emotions, and I can sort through and process and reflect on my experiences. I love the act of writing, of gliding a pen across paper, watching the ink flow to create words then sentences that soon fill the blank, unlined pages of my journal. I am laid bare, my vulnerability knows no bounds in my leafed haven. Only my eyes and God’s.

In my letters to friends, I share pieces of my heart. I pour out my adoration and my caring. Each of my friends is beautiful, and I wish for them to know it. A special connection between me and them. My eyes and theirs.

What about a journal filled with letters? Only for the eyes of one in the near future. A gift that will give access to my innermost being, the key to the depths of my heart. This journal I shall begin soon. And when I meet him one day, I’ll know it belongs to him, because it always has. It will be some time before I let it go, though. The day I give it to him, this piece of me, that day will be the one when we are joined in soul, mind, and body.

Read More »

"His Glory Appears"

You gave me hope, you made me whole at the cross…

"What Wondrous Love is This?" by Chelsea Moon with the Franz Brothers - one of my most favorite hymns